Monday, October 19, 2009

Day 17 - We're Gambling

As much as I try not to focus on anything negative these days, it happens sometimes. I'm human. This experience is so polarizing. It's black or white! If the IVF works, we will be elated by the best news we have ever gotten, but if it doesn't, we will probably hit the floor even harder than we did the first time.

This process is so expensive (with zero insurance coverage) that it is not something we can just try over and over again. In addition, it has such extreme outcomes that we are quite literally gambling with both money and emotions. It's emotional roulette, and it's scary as hell!

But, you can't win if you don't play.

For a long time now we have felt the daily loss of being childless, so this is a risk we know we must take for the second time. Now more than ever, were are working hard to ignore the fear and instead remember to be GRATEFUL for the opportunity, to TRUST that the process can work, and to have FAITH that our baby will be in our arms soon.


  1. I am so excited for you and Ben!! You guys have asuch a positive outlook on things and I know its going to work this time!! Toes and eyes are crossed!! xoxoxo

  2. Thanks, Sweet Dev!!! Glad that you're reading this blog. xox